X-files is one of my favorite shows of all time. I have watched so many hours of it and it is so interesting to me. I do get a little tired of the government conspiracies parts but overall it is a great show. I will definitely be writing a blog post about this show.
I don’t want to believe and I find the idea of it infuriating . The thought that aliens could take my fellow-man makes me so mad. LIke how dare they just hurt people in vain. I know hurting happens everyday but in most places we call that battery and assault with a side of kidnapping. I don’t want to believe that this could be true because I might busts a blood vessel from getting so angry lol
.Overall x-files is a great show and I highly recommend it to nerds. But if you are like me and get angry about alien abduction then you might have to skip a few episodes.
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I am going to use this post to tell you how I finally made it.
I finally made it to happiness. All the problems in my life have been healed. I have a new smile instead of a broken mouth, I started taking mental health meds and my positive thinking is now amped up, and last but not least my precious baby little bear made it through a life threatening ordeal.
I always tried to be a happy person but now I don’t have to try anymore, I am just happy. Thank God.
No pups came out and I belive she had a miscarriage. When I called the vet, the amount they said I would have to put down to do a C-section, well lets just way I would have to work for a month and a half without eating or electric to pay it. Even if I got the money together then there is no guarantee she would even survive the procedure and if she was dying I did not want her last minutes to be in surgery. It was rough for 2 days straight I could barely do anything and I slept on a blow up matres next to her. I thought she was dying in my arms like 20 times. Even now I am choking back tears to write this. It really shook me up. At work I was so worried I would come home to her lifeless body and then a miracle.
Today was the worst when I woke up little bear was really in a poor condition but I had to go to work because I had taken too much time off to be with her. I raced home when I got off and she was up for the first time in days tail waging and barking like crazy. And now the happy tears are flowing because I am so lucky. It is a blessing from god. I have such reason to count my blessing and little Bear is now at the top of that list.
I have had little Bear 10 years and maybe I will have her 10 more.
I still am in shock about her pulling through. I am so lucky to have my best friend for this extra time.
Omg it is so amazing to have my smile back. I am a new person and it feeels so awesome. When Bill first showed me what I looked like with the new teeth in. I just cried and cried lol. I can not wait to see the vlog video they put together with the footage of my makeover.
I have really been a negative Nancy this last month. I don’t want that to be what my blog is about. I just wanted to be honest about myself a little. But my blog is going to have some way more positive posts very soon.
I am really feeling the pressure eeech. I am just not sure how this is going to go. omg I can not belive it is only 4 hours. I made the moment I quit at 12 tonight, so I am going to count it down like its New Years eve.
At first this seemed like nothing when it was a week away but know I am getting scared. I think I am not scared to quit I am just scared to feel sad but I am now on some meds that should help with that yay. I know it is going to be rough like seriously rough but I am not going to back out. You don’t quit something you have done for 14 years without a rocky phase and I am saying lets do this. It is time. My heart is beating hard and my palms are sweaty. This is going to sting a lot
I am using an e-cig to quit smoking cigarettes on Saturday December 9th.
I have wanted to quit smoking cigarettes for so long. I have felt such shame about smoking and tried to quit so many times. Everytime I have tried to quit, I have failed miserably and then feel so down about it.
I have been smoking for 14 years. I started when I was 18 and have smoked the same amount like clockwork since I started.
I am getting a ton of help this time. I am going to meetings and using nicotine replacement therapy. And of course I am going to be using an e-cig which I think I might need forever but at a 0% level of nicotine.
I am telling you because I read that the more you tell people you are quitting, the more your chances of succeeding go up. I am ready to do this, I am ready to be tabaco free.
I just found out I am unable to get any school loans. The reason is because I went to school to be a medical assistant and still owe school loans.
I am probably like everyone else who owes school loans. Except I still work in fast food and make about fifteen thousand a year. I heard today I still owe sixteen thousand dollars.
It has been almost ten years since this loan took a turn for the worst. I was young and stupid and should have worked towards taking care of it. I did always take care of myself and no one ever supported me financially. I just never was good with a budget
This news was just absolutely devastating to me. As you can see in the picture from yesterday I was down for a minute. I could not belive with all the interest, it is that high.
But now I have a goal and I won’t stop. I found a career in Graphic design that is perfect for me. I am going to work hard and raise whatever money I need to go back to school. It is so on like donkey kong.