This is what my life is like after getting mental help

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in 2007 I was diagnosed with Bipolar. The meds they gave me were wrong for me and I gave up on them for nearly a decade. In 2017 I went back and tried again.

There are no words for the difference and transformation I went through. Before I was a half a person where now I am almost whole. Sometimes I like to think of the bipolar like a black sluge stuck inside my head and the medicine.

It is not perfect but its 70 percent better. It is always going to be there like a dark passenger, the meds just gave me the tools to fight.

I currently take Zoloft, lithium and hydroxozyn with very little side effects. Because I am ridiculously lucky I found the right combination on the third try.

“I NEVER HAVE TO FEEL WORTHLESS AGAIN”

The meds turn down the volume on all the bad emotions. And one of the worst emotions I have ever felt was worthless. I remember think at the chart of me taking meds, don’t get fooled it will come back. Now it has been two and a half years and I have never felt that pit of darkness since.

I don’t have a desire to drink anymore. I have the occasional drink on my birthday and New Years eve. But I just don’t care to get f**Ked up anymore. I drank more than I care to admit in my younger days. And during that time the thought of quitting drinking was like death to me. I was trying to make myself a whole person with alcohol.

I smile more and cry less. My life doesn’t feel like a mess. lol I did not mean for that to rhyme.

One of my favorite dogs Ruby had to be put down

She always got so excited to see me. When her mom told me the news I was so sad. I’m so lucky she came down to my job one last time before she passed. She always cheered me up and made me so happy.

I am so lucky to have known such a wonderful dog.

https://ashtamisprime.com/2017/07/16/my-favorite-patron-at-my-job/

August 19th was my birthday

I had the best time at the lake for my birthday. I went camping for the days and it was amazing. Thank you to everyone for all the birthday wishes and for making my birthday so special.

Mrs. Australia chose Brighter Image Lab

I am so amazed that I have the same veneers as Mrs. Australia. This is such a cool feeling knowing I have something in common with someone who is that beautiful.

What Brighter Image Labs did for me was so amazing that I feel any words I say won’t do them justice. I am so proud of them for helping so many people and from all walks of life.

I feel so honored to have gotten a chance to work with such an amazing company that is going to change the world.

If you are having trouble with your teeth then please take a few minutes to look at Brighter Image Lab’s website.

https://brighterimagelab.com

A few days after I shaved my head

I am loving the look and my shaved head has never felt so cool. I am really thinking about keeping the look. What do you guys think?

Watch the video of me shaving my head

https://ashtamisprime.com/2018/06/25/my-head-shaving-video/

My nephew broke his arm last night

My heart is breaking for my little nephew. It was really not good, he had surgery last night and everything went great thank God. I am so happy he is feeling better. He is such a trooper.

I just got done talking to him, I told him his arm looks like a robot arm and he laughed.

Everybody please pray for a speedy recovery for my precious nephew Dillon.