I am going to use this post to tell you how I finally made it.
I finally made it to happiness. All the problems in my life have been healed. I have a new smile instead of a broken mouth, I started taking mental health meds and my positive thinking is now amped up, and last but not least my precious baby little bear made it through a life threatening ordeal.
I always tried to be a happy person but now I don’t have to try anymore, I am just happy. Thank God.
I can not belive I have made it this far. I always read it takes 21 days to break a habit and now I hit 21 day yesssssssssssssss. I am so happy th roughest times are over. I did it after 14 years of smoking I kicked the habit.
My Brother got me 2 awesome pops, one of the Doctors and the Tardis. Omg I am a huge Doctor Who fan and it is so cool having thesee pops. I would never be able to afford one these, so it is really cool that now I have a mini collection just from presents my friends and family have gotten me.
I got my brother a Stranger Things pops. Or really I should say I went in half with my sister to get one for him.
I do not think I am extravagant person, especially when it comes to money. I am defiantly guilty of making a story extravagant, but that was probably more in my younger years.
When I think of the word extravagant I think of crazy decorations or jewelry with like a million diamonds on it and that is way too fancy for me. Maybe one day I will be able to afford extravagant things in my life but for right now I know I am blessed for having some extravagance in my life.
No pups came out and I belive she had a miscarriage. When I called the vet, the amount they said I would have to put down to do a C-section, well lets just way I would have to work for a month and a half without eating or electric to pay it. Even if I got the money together then there is no guarantee she would even survive the procedure and if she was dying I did not want her last minutes to be in surgery. It was rough for 2 days straight I could barely do anything and I slept on a blow up matres next to her. I thought she was dying in my arms like 20 times. Even now I am choking back tears to write this. It really shook me up. At work I was so worried I would come home to her lifeless body and then a miracle.
Today was the worst when I woke up little bear was really in a poor condition but I had to go to work because I had taken too much time off to be with her. I raced home when I got off and she was up for the first time in days tail waging and barking like crazy. And now the happy tears are flowing because I am so lucky. It is a blessing from god. I have such reason to count my blessing and little Bear is now at the top of that list.
I have had little Bear 10 years and maybe I will have her 10 more.
I still am in shock about her pulling through. I am so lucky to have my best friend for this extra time.
When I think of the word cherished I think about how much I cherish my family. They mean the world to me and I do not know what I would do without them. I am sure I would be cynical and a jerk if it weren’t for the light they bring to my life. I cherish the time that I get to spend with them.